One Small Voice

White as a Snowflake Upon the Dirty Ground

I want to write so much on here.. but I now realize that I need to have more people who would benefit from it to read this. When they do get here though I hope they take the time to read all this. I am working on a poem to express a thought I had yesterday.....

Snowflakes falling
Intertwined
Upon the dirty ground
Purity it slips away
but not without a sound

The sound of fear
and consequence
And hopes that fade away
Call out for all to guard them selves
and treasure purity today

Yet snowflakes still fall
intertwined
Upon the dirty ground
Ignoring but still feeling
Puritys lost sound


I am still working on it. But let me just tell you where I'm going. Purity is so precious yet we are so eager to give it up. We day dream of "love" and because of people these days we have begun to view "love" connected mainly by physical attraction and action. It's such a lie. But it's so hard especially for us girls who feel like it may be the only way to make a guy like us. We are raised by TV. Even children's stories of princes who wake princesses with true loves kiss. Its a nice thought but how can someone truly love you when they just see you laying there dead.. not knowing what you love to do, how you smile, what your favorite song is,and What it is that makes you cry. If they have never spent the time to cheer you up and listen to your problems. True love is learned. Not a moment.. but I am getting carried away with myself.
I have grown up in church and had it hammered into my brain over and over again about guarding myself.. but I became numb to the message. It meant nothing and so I treated it like nothing. I dreamed of meeting a good looking guy kissing him passionately and proving my love to him....but my dream was really messed up. But because of my dream I felt the need to make guys happy through physical action. It was the only way they could truly love me I thought. And this poem is about what is going on while it is all happening.
Snowflakes are white and beautiful each unique and special. Like us. But when we start to give ourselves away, we are like a falling snowflake falling closer to the ground. As it is all happening your mind is racing it is thinking of everything those words of protecting your self and how precious your purity are there. But you push them out of your mind. Ignoring all the warning signs your mind is telling you and you dive head first into the dirt. Ruining the beauty you had. And let me tell you. It isn't worth it. The guilt and worry that follows in the days months and years after is not worth the chance to experience a true love with one person you know will stay with you forever and has taken the vows to prove it. A guilt free expression of love through actions....Its priceless and something I am looking forward to.
And I know you have heard it before but when you give that part of you away to each person, you will carry a part of them with you into your marriage and your life. When you kiss your spouse you will remember them when you are making love you will remember the other times... your love is tainted. You have a chance to experience something so great that I will never have. So I call out to you to realize this and truly treasure what you have. Be in no rush to kiss that boy or girl.. Because when I talk of purity I am not only talking sex I am talking everything around it. This doesn't mean don't kiss till your married just guard your self a little more. Don't rush into anything. And draw lines. Remember those voices in your head that make us nervous scared or worried are warning us about something. Listen to them. See what they are saying.
Stay pure and remember the choices you make can effect others.

posted by CreativeBarbie @ 7:57 PM 0 comments

Why I'm here

No one sits with him, he doesn’t fit in
But we feel like we do when we make fun of him
Cause you want to belong do you go along
Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong
It’s not like we hate him or want him to die
But maybe he goes home and thinks suicide
Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side
And a kindness from you might have saved his life

Heroes are made when you make a choice
You could be a hero
Heroes do what’s right
You could be a hero
You might save a life
You could be a hero, You could join the fight
For what’s right for what’s right for what’s right

No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She’s in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can’t handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on is a day that she is brave,
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way,
Each moment of courage her own life she saves
When she throws out the pills a hero is made

No one talks to him about how he lives
He thinks that the choices he makes are just his
Doesn’t know he’s a leader with the way he behaves
And others will follow the choices he’s made
He lives on the edge, he’s old enough to decide
His brother who wants to be him is just nine
He can do what he wants because it’s his right
The choices he makes change a nine year old’s life

I've been talking a lot with someone online and they have told me to think about my dreams. I want to impact the world and better the world I am in now. This song came on one day when I was thinking about what I should be doing....I have an impact on many peoples lives just by the choices I make. What I do isn't just effecting me but it effects everyone around me.

I've never been good at spelling, or math or school at all. But I have a big heart that just want to love the world. As you know the world is cold though and hardly ever loves you back.

This space is where I'll write my thoughts and hopes and dreams for you. Everyone has been through so much in their lives. You can feel so alone. But your not. There are people out there to help you and if you'll let me I would like to be there for you. You can e-mail me or comment on my page with questions. Tell your friends who may need to hear some of this.

Before I go. Remember you are important and wonderful. EVERYONE IS.. So treat them and yourselves accordingly.

posted by CreativeBarbie @ 10:30 AM 2 comments